"So where did you sleep last night?"
"On the dirt?!"
Naw! On a fucking mattress with flowery blankets and nice fluffy pillows!
Thats what I wanted to say. But I responded with
"No, theres an emergency door, and cement"
"Man, its pretty scary out there all alone"
YOU STUPID COPS! Go fuck yourselves!
So heres how it all started...
Walking to the bus stop on Tuesday morning, I was thinking about how Victoria was gone, and how I basically took her place, and how I wasnt that sad that she was gone, because she was screwing up shit with Pepe and I. She had been gone for 3 weeks.
And I get to the bus stop... and who do I see? Victoria
I turned around
"Emily! Oh my god! I missed you so much *hugs me tight* They locked me up for 3 weeks!! Remember that day Freddy drove us to school?! Well the cops came and got me that day!"
I was irritated now. I did not want her to come back.
But shes my friend, why was I thinking that way?!
So after school I went with her to her place, along with Israel and Cesar. [who likes me]
And Cesar wrote MS 13 MSX13 on my arm.
I was walking home, and Raul saw me. So he asked me if I wanted a ride, so I got into the car, and he talked to me for like 1 and half hours! About life and making the right choices, boring shit.
I had my sleeves rolled up cause it was hot outside, and my Mom came home and saw the MS stuff on my arm. She totally lost it.
She beat the shit out of me, with everything she could get her hands off. And I ran away from home. I stayed with Pepe. I slept at his house at night, it was fun. I wanna live with him. I feel so good with him.
So he went to work at 4 something in the morning, and I stayed home alone at his place all day, just slept and watched talk shows. Didnt go to school.
He got home around 2:50, and we chilled, and we were watching a movie around 5 or 6 something... and my Mom called Pepe's house, but Chuy answered the phone and told my Mom that Pepe was not home, so she spoke to Chuy and interrogated him over the phone. And Chuy said he had not seen me.
"Emily ran away yesterday."
It was so funny.
So I looked out the window like 10 minutes later... and the cops were at my house. Pepe freaked out and told me to leave and to meethim at Wal*Mart. So I just ran all the way to Wal*Mart, but I did not see Pepe. So I went inside Wal*Mart and stole a bunch of Snickers bars. Then I went back to the trailer park, to see if the cops were still at my house, and they were. So I went walking to where Ames used to be, but now its just a vacant place.
I called my Mom collect on the pay phone.
"Why did you call the cops?!"
"Because I'm worried about you!"
"Where are they now?"
"Up at your friends house interrogating him."
"What the fuck?! Why?!"
"Cause I want to know where the hell you are!"
I hung up on her, she made me mad.
So I went back to the trailer park, and I saw that the cop car was gone. So I was walking around the trailer park, and I saw Rafa, he said he was going to Todos Market, I asked him if I could go, and hes like "Yeah, get in the car" and I turned around... and there was my Mom... driving my way. So I ran. I ran to the basket ball court... and who did I see? Angel... I had not seen him in like 1 and half months. He asked me who I was running from and I told him my Mom and the cops. And he was like "Man, just go home"
Instead... I ran to Pepe's house. Only Chuy was there. He said Pepe went out looking for me. And then Pepe called, and Chuy told him I was there. And Pepe told Chuy to tell me to leave, and Chuy told me to call him later in the night, I told him I had no money, and he gave me 7 dollars.
So I went to Jennifer's house. Bad idea.
Ingrid said the cops came looking for me, and I walked out the door, and her and Jennifer's Mom came runnin after me, and Ingrid said she was taking me to the police station, and Jennifer's Mom kept yelling at me to go home.
So Ingrid was driving me to the police station, and I asked her to stop at a gas station so I could buy a bottle of water, and she was scared that I was going to run away again, so she parked right in front of the door of the gas station. So I bought my water, and she told me about the cops coming to Jennifer's place. My Mom lied to the cops! She told them I needed my medication and I was going to kill myself.
I'm over that shit. All that shit. Trying to kill myself, and cutting myself and shit. I'm dont with it. My Mom lied.
So Ingrid and I walked inside the police station and as soon as the cops saw me they ran up to me and put me in the room to talk to them. It was so screwed. I told them everything. And they said I need to be put in mediation, and I need to go back home.
So they took me back home, and my steppy was there. When Marissa saw me... she hugged me and gave me a piece of gum.
Then 10 minutes later... she came in my room, and 3 minutes later my steppy goes yelling at her, telling her to never come in my room again. So I slammed the door in his face.
"Dont slam the door! This is my house!"
"Shut up! SHUT THE FUCK UP!"
I screamed at the top of my lungs. I was so exhausted. I tried to write, but it did not come out good, so I balled the papers up and threw them away. I just sat there on my floor, hugging the stuff doggie that Pepe gave me.
My Mom got home around 11 something and she was talking to me. I did not really listen. I did not want to.
When I got home... all the posters on my walls were gone.
Mom- Why did you take the posters off your walls?
"I did not! You did!"
"Then Armando did"
Ok?! Why the hell is he going to take MY posters off MY walls, fucking dickwad. I hope he burns in hell, motherfucker.
So then I went to bed, I woke up the next morning feeling like I had a hangover or something, all dizzy and messed up. My Mom drove me to school. As soon as I got there, Daniella was inside, and when she saw me the first thing she said was "You fucked up." I just laughed it off like a dumbass. I swear... I was on something.
I chilled with Victoria, Israel, and Cesar after school. The want me to dump Pepe for Cesar. Haha. They fucking wish.
I wrote Pepe a letter, telling him I'm sorry for causing so much chaos in his life, and sorry for making things so complicated.
I spoke to him last night and he goes "I love you mamacita" and when I got off the phone with him... I burst into tears... I love him so much. And I kept crying... I was sad... but it was happy saddness.
I went to his place today after school, I ran off the bus, I did not want to deal with Victoria or anyone else. I just wanted to see my baby and hug him. And thats what I did. I layed down with him on the living room floor, with my hea don his chest, and listened to his heartbeat. And I say "I love you" at the most random moments.
I came home around 4:15, and watched TV.
I also spoke to my Dad yesterday... I told him I did not want anything to do with him... I told him a lot. And afterwards when I thought about it... I felt bad.
I dont plan on stopping here, just cause my Mom called the cops dont mean shit... fuck authority, the more you try to tame me... the more wild I get. Has'nt anyone figured that out yet?!